Reflecting back on 2018, and looking forward to 2019, I wanted to document what I feel is a key lesson over the last few years regarding my work, and why I feel I had rebooted my efforts once again.
I’ve deviated from my core a few times over the recent years in trying to build Perspective Mapper, exploring various pivots and side-projects which, while related to my interests, squandered my energy from what I feel called to express most deeply in this life.
So I went awry. But how?
On one hand, I am, like all of us, an imperfect, evolving human being, dealing with the challenges of developing healthy habits, relationships, and environment.
On the another hand, I took too seriously the so-called practical voices that told me to be more commercial-minded, adjust myself to society’s standards, follow more closely what others are doing, pay attention to how others perceive me, pursue immediate revenue streams first, attain certain metric firsts, etc.…to the point where I subconsciously diverted my path and shifted my focus numerous times…and lost tremendous energy and momentum in the process.
Mind you, the concerns above, as well as other such concerns, are important in any organization. I’m not disputing this.
However, none of these concerns are actually the point of my work. The profound irony is my fixation on these concerns actually precipitates the problems they are meant to address, to the degree I gave them priority over my work itself.
I have no regrets for the various pivots and projects I worked on these past couple of years. I learned quite a number of essential lessons, as well as benefitted from further time to mature as a human being.
But I consider…if I had instead had the conviction to be unrelentingly focused on the original vision and scope of Perspective Mapper and stayed on course, had full faith in my calling, had full trust in my soul, and let go clamoring for revenues, worrying about competition, and chasing clients for unsuitable projects, it’s clear I would have gone through really rock bottom times… but it’s also very much clear I would have entrenched my work at this stage, rather than having had to reboot my efforts yet again for 2019, as I’m currently doing.
In business, we give much weight to factors such as marketing strategy, business climate, financial sense, commercial viability, etc…but really, really success boils down to mature conviction. And I sense we ALL have a hunch about this. Mature conviction in our ideals can help us face up to any challenge, grow from every experience, and make opportunities viable in the most barren of climates.
I go so far as to define success AS mature conviction alone. There is only failure without it. And there is only success with it. Why? Because with conviction, failure has no soil to set root. We don’t allow it to. The gusts of conviction always propel us to fly beyond.
The beauty is that success is guaranteed if we adopt conviction as our definition of success. From there on out, things fall into place and opportunities arise, in their own way, in their own time, in the manner most aligned with our soul’s divine journey.
So whether our work matches our imagined ideals, sooner, or later, or never in this life, it doesn’t matter. That we live and work with resounding conviction is enough to feed the soul…and riffing a bit on ancient wisdom, perhaps even the most fulfilling way to feed the belly.
What exactly is mature conviction? I’ll explore in a future post. 🙂