The Irony of Failure (a 2018 Retrospective)

Reflecting back on 2018, and forward to 2019, I wanted to share a key lesson over the last few years regarding my work, and how I rebooted my efforts again.

Looking back, I see I’ve deviated from my core a few times over the recent years in trying to build Perspective Mapper, exploring pivots and side-projects which, while somewhat related to my interests, seized energy from my core.

I went awry. But how?

On one hand, I am, like all of us, an imperfect, evolving human being, dealing with the challenges of developing healthy habits, relationships, and greater awareness.

On the another hand, I took too seriously the “practical” voices that told me to be more commercial-minded, adjust myself to their standards, follow more closely what others are doing, pay attention to how I’m perceived, pursue immediate revenue streams as first priority, attain certain status before doing anything, etc.

I paid attention to the point where I diverted my path and shifted my focus repeatedly…losing momentum in the process.

Mind you, the practical concerns I just shared are good and important. I’m not denying this.

However, none of these concerns are actually the point. They are nice to have sorted, but they aren’t why we do what we do. The reality and the irony is that our fixation on such concerns actually derails us.

By fixating on an outcome of status, image or money, we lose sight of why we’re doing what we’re doing…inevitably.

I have no regrets for the various pivots and projects I worked on these past couple of years. I learned many essential lessons, as well as benefited from the time to explore and mature as a human being.

But I consider…if I had hypothetically had the conviction to be unrelentingly focused on the original vision and scope of my work and stayed on course, had full faith in my calling, had complete trust in my soul, and let go of tangents, it’s clear I would have gone through rock bottom times… but it’s also likely I would have more grounded in myself at this stage, rather than having had to reboot my efforts.

In business, we give much weight to factors such as marketing strategy, business climate, financial sense, commercial viability, etc…but really, real success boils down to mature conviction. And I sense we ALL have a knowing about this. Mature conviction in our ideals can help us face up to any challenge, grow from every experience, and make opportunities viable in the most barren of climates.

I go so far as to define success AS mature conviction alone. Not necessarily in terms that society defines success, but success in bringing the full expression of our value to the world.

Without conviction, there is only failure. And with conviction, there is only success. Why? Because with conviction, failure cannot set root. We’re already rooted in our Self.

The beauty is that success is guaranteed if we adopt conviction as our definition of success. From there on out, things fall into place and opportunities arise, in their own way, in their own time, in the manner most aligned with our soul’s journey.

So whether our outcome matches our imagined ideals, sooner, or later, or never in this life, it doesn’t matter. That we live and work with resounding conviction is enough to feed the soul…and riffing a bit on ancient wisdom, perhaps even the most fulfilling way to feed the belly.

What exactly is mature conviction? I’ll explore in a future post. 🙂

Ranjeeth Thunga
Perspective Mapper

4 thoughts on “The Irony of Failure (a 2018 Retrospective)”

  1. It takes lot of courage to be brutally honest with one self and importantly to put itbup out there even more so.

    Writing with such clarity in itself is one form of maturity and conviction ..
    I am sure with such ‘ matured conviction ‘
    you will realize your vision as a perspective mapper and have a fulfilled life.

    Wishing you that 2019 becones the turning point and you taste the true success you have been seeking. Best wishes

    1. Thank you very much Ravi. Yes, the fact that one can (in this case me :)) articulate precisely the nature of what I’ve gone through and how my own perspective has shifted over time is itself an indication of my maturity — or rather, my maturing. That said, I don’t know if I can claim yet to be fully mature..but getting there. 🙂

      The ideals of this project do require a certain extra level of clarity of thought and emotion…but the rewards I hope will not just be my life fulfilled, but in some way, large or small, the fulfillment of others on this planet who feel their vantage point hasn’t yet been taken into account, let alone heard.

      If the world can prevent itself from being destroyed, then I feel my efforts (along with other efforts that might be approaching these same human issues from various angles…including yours Ravi) will have done their job. 🙂

  2. Great post. I am excited about the future for you and your work. Beware the man who knows exactly what he wants and why he’s here.

    1. Thank you Mike! The resulting clarity that comes from repeated cycles of falling down, reflecting, and standing up again is potent. Looking forward to continuing to work closely with you over the coming months and years towards our beautiful, shared vision.

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